The Bridal Model

By: Janti Fitri

Magazines. Newspapers. TVs. Journalists

Well, modeling is her job. She likes to be capture by the cameras. She had been working with many famous photographers and also knows many famous designers. She also walked in many catwalks in the world. Well, right now we are talking about Tania the bridal models. Even though not so many people easy to recognize models, but Tania really success in her jobs, she never thinks how famous she is, but she enjoys a lot the work that she had.

Commercial break

But, it was before the sad stories step by in her small heart. As the bridal model, Tania met many men and captured in the romantic pose with many men also. It was easy for her, because she professionally did her job, but after the presence of a new bridal model, things are different now. 

Studio

His name is Sam, he was new in the model agent where she also in. But Sam didn’t talk too much as another models. He always sat in the corner of the room and reads book. He talked softly and politely to everyone in the studio. And he will looked at Tania eyes deeply when the cameras on. Even though many men already looked at her eyes in many different ways, but Sam' eyes very different. It always makes Tania heart would beat twice faster than usually. Well, the result the photographers used this chance to produce more quality photos for their products. So, since their eyes meet, Tania and Sam are always become the couple for the wedding needs. Until one day………………………..

“Are you sure about what you are saying?” said a girl behind the walls when Tania passed the dressing room.

“Absolutely” Tania heard Sam said.

“But what about Tania? I think she is your girl friend?” said her again.

“She’s not. We just a model, you know…well, I think you have been working in this place for years. I think you know about it.” said Sam again.

“But I can see the look two of you. There’s love. Not just between two models. I have been working with Tania for such years and I never see her eyes looked at her mate like that. Really, I am serious, Sam.” Said the woman again.

“Hafwen, listen!” said Sam almost screamed. But the more surprised is Tania. It is because Hafwen is her assistant. Continued Sam, “I don’t love Tania, well, I don’t hate her. She’s okay, I mean, yes she’s pretty and kind, but I don’t like her. I like you.” The last sentence was saying by Sam soften. And Sam said again, “and I am sure that Tania has same feeling too about me. We are just a partner.”

By hearing “just a partner” made Tania slowly move away from the place she stood. She got into the bathroom and stared herself in the mirror.

Said her to herself, “I’m pretty, I am. I am kind, I am. But I’m not the love!” she cried badly at the moment, until she heard someone move toward the bathroom. Hurriedly, Tania got in one of the toilet and hid there.

“Tania, are you there?” Tania heard Hafwen voice. Tania tried to control her voice then answer her, “Yes, Wen. I am here. I got stomachache. Maybe diarrhea.”

“What did you eat last night?” asked Hafwen.

“I was eating chili and ice cream.” Lied Tania.

“Ah come on Tania, you always know that chili and ice cream will make you sick, but you still eat them in the same time.” Said Hafwen angrily.

“I didn’t plan to eat ice cream last night. But as I saw the commercial break in the television, I remember the ice cream that you give me last week. And you know me…I can’t control myself on ice cream right?” lied Tania again.

“Well..well..I don’t want to give you ice cream anymore.”

“Please Hafwen, don’t! Give me ice cream.” Beg Tania.

“Huufftthh…! You better hurried, the photographer will be ready in an hour and I need to prepare you.” said Hafwen.

“Okay, Hafwen.” Said Tania in low voice. After that Tania could hear the steps off. Hafwen left the bathroom.

After wash her face, Tania left the bathroom and met Hafwen in the dressing room. When, she came to the dressing room, Tania could see that Sam is very happy and cheer. Tania never saw happiness like that from Sam after years they work with. Inside of her heart, she is very jealous with this happiness.

Meanwhile Hafwen, after saw Tania enter the room, she left Sam with her little laughs and then get a chair for Tania. Tania sat in front of the mirror like a dead people. She felt very empty. And Sam, he didn’t recognize the changes. He just back to the books that he brought. 

Break

An hour later, the session of photos was starting. Anthony the photographer seemed do not satisfied with the progress today. So, he stopped the sessions and asked the models to break. Anthony saw that Tania went outside of the room. Anthony followed her slowly. Tania got into the bathroom, so  did Anthony.

Tania was very surprised when she saw that Anthony was in the girl bathroom,

“What are you doing?” said Tania.

“Are you okay?” asked Anthony back.

“I’m fine.” Said Tania shortly.

“You are not fine.” Said Anthony.

“How do you know it?”

“I can see it thru the camera. I can see deep inside of your heart.” Said Anthony, “So, tell me what happen?”

“Nothing wrong, Anthony.” Tania turned her back.

“I have been working for you for years. I know every changes in you. You can’t hide it from me, even though you can lie to another.” Said Anthony while he left the bathroom.

This was a bad day for Tania, especially after what Anthony had said. She tried hard not to see Sam when he talked to Hafwen. But, only by heard their voices, Tania felt it hurts. Tania couldn’t hold this paint anymore. So, she went to her friend Natalie. She told Natalie about everything she got today. 

Natalie’s house

That night, Natalie and Tania prepared many trick to attract Sam. Natalie put out her women magazines from her cupboard and helped Tania to search the articles. Tania read the article until the sun rise again. Tania saw that Natalie slept on the floor on her magazines. Then, Tania got up to get the blanket. After she covered Natalie, Tania went to studio for next session. 

Back to studio

In the studio, Tania practiced all the theories that she got from the magazines. She wanted to show how care she is to Sam. She tried hard to be a girl that he liked. But Sam just smiled wisely like he used to. But Tania didn’t give up.

Until the midday, Tania felt a sleep in the photos session. Anthony tried hard to wake her. But it is useless. Tania didn’t sleep at all last night and she was very sleepy. Two hours later Anthony tried to wake her. And yes, she woke up.

“What’s wrong with you?” asked Anthony softly.

“Nothing wrong, Anthony. Let’s back to camera.” Tania was standing and will prepared for the next sessions. But Anthony held her hand, “Sit down. And let’s talk.” Said Anthony. Anthony talked to her so much, but Tania didn’t speak a word. Anthony gave up then, and he called Hafwen to re-make up her. 

Tania’s house

Shortly, all Tania’s tricks were failed. Sam didn’t care to her at all. And this day, Tania held wedding invitations from Sam. Tania stood in front of the window and stared the wedding invitation in her hand.

“Usually, there’s me beside Sam. And now it is Hafwen. Everybody said that we are the best couple ever, but in real we are not.” Tania fell down on the floor and stared the falling rain on her windows. “It is too late now.” said her softly.

An hour later, Tania got up from the floor and ran to her bedroom. She cleaned her eyes and got her back. She walked in the rain. Not long after, she knocked to a large white house. Mrs. Pauline surprised with Tania presence in her house with her pale face like that. And She got more surprised that Tania decided to quit from her job.

“I can’t stay no longer here, Pauline. Really I can’t. I tried hard to be professional. But it makes me sick.” Cried Tania, “I’m stupid with this decision, but I will do it. I must away from all the places that remind me to him. I can’t see both of them.”

“It’s complicated to me Tania. You are my best model.” Said Mrs. Pauline.

“Please, Pauline. I can’t” beg Tania.

“Well, I don’t want you to leave me!” said Mrs. Pauline sharply, “but I have sister in France who also own the model agency. I want you to go there. At least, I still can use in, if I go to French. What do you think so?”

“I don’t want to become bridal model anymore, Pauline. I just want to be a model. Just a model.” Said Tania softly.

“You will, don’t worry. My sister model agency is not just a bridal models. Otherwise, you are in French. You will be more fame than right now. Go!” said Mrs. Pauline softly, “I will arrange your leaving before the wedding. But you must complete all the sessions before you go.”

Tania agreed it then she went home.

The last sessions……………………………………

After the last photo that Anthony took, Mrs. Pauline walked to the center of the studio and said,

“Attention!” and all the people are silent. She said, “This is the last day Tania stay with us…” Paused…buzzing….Claps of Mrs. Pauline. Silent.

“Tania will go to France as she needed there. Well, it is hard for me, but it is for her good and I wish her luck. Tania.” Mrs. Pauline ended her speech by calling Tania. Tania walked toward Mrs. Pauline and speech.

“I thank you very much for all of your kindness as long as I work with you. It is really fun with you and I am sure I will miss you much soon I leave. But I have to go. And I am sorry for my best makeup artist, Hafwen. I am sorry that I can’t attend your wedding. I am happy for you and I hope you luck then.” Paused. Cried, “and please wish me luck also, because I’m very afraid right now, cause I don’t know what will I face in French, what kind of friend that I will meet, but I just can’t deny the offer to French as it is my dream since I was young. So, please please pray for me for this. And for Sam, I will miss you my husband.” Laughed. Whistle. Screamed. “For all of you…I will miss you very much.” Tania ended her speech with tears and laughed in the same time. Then everybody one by one, hug her and said goodbye to her. After that all the crowded is offer.

Tania walked slowly to the dressing room. She found Sam alone in the room, asked Tania, “Where is Hafwen?”

“Ah..she has meeting with Pauline.” Said Sam.

“Oh.” Said Tania. Then, she tidy up all her stuff. Tania could see from the mirror that Sam was still reading the book.

“Sam.” Called Tania.

“Yeah.” Sam looked at Tania. Tania walked toward him while she carried all of her stuff,

“Can we talk?” asked Tania.

“Oh sure. Why? What happen?” surprised Sam. Tania sat in front of Sam. Sam closed her book and looked at Tania's eyes.

“I am not happy for your wedding.” said Tania frankly.

“What?!” surprised Sam.

“It is strange to see the wedding invitation where your pictured is there with Hafwen. I was dreaming that the wedding invitation is filled both of us. But I know, it is ridiculous.” Said Tania.

“I’m sorry, I don’t know it.” said Sam.

“Maybe you don’t know it. But I know that you like Hafwen so much. I was trying to make you care about me, but you don’t see it. So, I go Sam. I can’t see her with you. Nobody offers me a job in France. I offer them. Wish me luck Sam.” Said Tania while she stood and left Sam.

“Tania…” called Sam when Tania closed to the door. Stopped. Look back. “I’m really sorry. I don’t know it.” said Sam while he stood from his seat.

“That’s okay. I will be fine.” Tania went out and closed the door. But to her surprised, Anthony was outside of the door. Said Tania to Anthony, “You know it. You can see it thru the camera.” Melting tears.

“Yeah” said Anthony. Tania left Anthony.

“Tania.” Called Anthony while walked toward her. Tania stopped. Anthony hugged her, “I will miss you. I mean it.” Tania pulled out Anthony.

“Thank you Anthony, for everything.” Then, Tania hugged Anthony.

Months after Tania went to France.

Anthony sat on her chair and played his camera.

“And now, what’s happen with you?” said Mrs. Pauline.

“I miss her, Mom.” Said Anthony to Mrs. Pauline.

“Your old, you know what you should do.” Said Mrs. Pauline and left Anthony – her son. Anthony smiled, then got up and got his back. He ran out the studio.

French

“Okay, 1, 2…..” said the Jacques the photographer.

“Move out! Move out! Move out!” said a voice from the studio’s door.

“Hey…what are you doing?” screamed Jacques.

“Anthony!” screamed Tania and ran to Anthony.

“I will get my models back to me.” Said Anthony to Jacques – his cousin – and it ending while the beat each other.

“Hey, you both! When will you get older?!” said Mrs. Emily. After that Jacques release Anthony. Anthony walked toward Tania and said, “I miss you, and this camera too…well..actually, I miss you more than this camera miss you.”

Tania laughed and then hugged him!

End!

   Hafwen: summer blessed (Irish named for girl)

Mr. Evil vs Cockroach

By: Janti Fitri

Jack and Jennie never be a good friend. They were both like enemies. Both of them live in the same neighborhood and also schooling in the same university. Jack is a boy who likes to fight. Well, he almost fight everyday. He has a bad temper and easily to get mad. He has a big and tall body. He can do Kung fu, Tae Kwon Do and Karate. Every body afraid to him. So, that's why Jennie doesn't like him so much.


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But things were changes since the bad rivalry lies between two of them! Jack was starting the rivalry to Jennie, as Jennie is his junior in the university, but the teacher always talk about her in every subject she chooses. Well, Jennie is a very clever girl. So, no wonder that the lectures talk about her as she also won many prizes in many competitions that held by the universities. Meanwhile, Jack he nearly got the final DO as he is not often join the class and with the bad record on his attitude. Jack hates Jennie so much for this.

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Well, actually nothing is really bad from Jennie, she is just nice and cute and clever and kind heart girl. And jack, is just a brutal and lazy and stubborn and selfish and a bad boy. Jack started the rivalry by showing the public that Jennie is not a perfect person. She also has a bad side. Jack captured Jennie's video when she angry to his father. He sabotaged her in annual performance when all the people were there to show their talents to the public. Obviously, Jennie was so shy and angry to Jack. It was showing that Jennie was very childish and stubborn to her father.

But that sabotage didn't make the people hate Jennie. Otherwise, they love Jennie more and more. In result, Jack is getting more angry to Jennie (Hihihihihiihi). Jack tried to find how to fight against this cry baby. He must won, but may not hurt her, because she is only a girl, but he must makes her lost.

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Since the sabotage, both of them look for the ways to attack back. Yeah...both of them success to hurt one another and this rivalry known by all the people in the campus. Until one day, when Jennie walked near Jack house. Jennie saw Jack was running outside from his house. He screamed like a girl, meanwhile, his mother also run outside the door while holding the broom. Jennie felt pity to Jack. She thought that Jack was bitten by his mother. So, no wonder that Jack really hates her. So, Jennie decided to hide behind the bush and waited until they were gone.

Jennie heard Jack voice, "Mooommm....nooo...!!!"
"Come here, Jack! Come back here!"
"Mom...no...stop it!!!"
BOOM!! BOOM!!! Jennie closed her eyes as she heard the sound of the broom beat something. She almost cry to see this.
But suddenly, Jennie heard a low voice from Jack, "Is it die, Mom?"
"It is" said his Mom in some soft voice.

Jennie curious to this and she peeked what really going on is. She opened her eyes and found that Jack's mom held cockroach. ?????????????????? Jennie couldn't hold her laugh. She ran back to where she was from until she found an empty street. After that she laugh a loud. She couldn't understand why the strong man like Jack afraid to this little creature? Finally, her nosy mind twirl. She got a crazy idea for Jack.

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In the early morning, Jennie go to the library to visit her lecture who busy with many insects. Jennie visit him and said hi to this old professor,

"Good morning, Professor?" smiled Jennie to the professor.
"Hello good morning, angel" said the professor while placed back his thick eye glasses right in his eyes.
"I am not Angel professor, I am Jennie." Shy Jennie. She knew what professor really mean.
"I know that, I can recognize from your voice, Jennie. But you are the angel of this university." Smiled the professor while turn his back and faced Jennie.
"Thank you professor."
"Ahh...what can I do for you? You are not repeat any lesson here right?" 
"No, Professor. I just want to ask you something."
"What is that?"
"Can I have some of your cockroach, Professor, Please?"
"Why do you want to have it?"
"I just want to pet it professor."
"Ohh..I see. Don't worry. You can have some, as you want. I can get it again."
"Thank you, Professor."
"Always welcome for you, angel."
Jennie got the cockroach and place it in her bottle that she prepared from home. After she thanked the professor once again, she went out from the laboratory. 

Jennie left the old professor with her sweetest smile. After that she smiled in her nosy faced when she met Jack. Jack didn't know what wrong with her. Then, he said to Jennie, "What's wrong? So, you fall in love to me? No. Don't hope!"
"Me? I am not. Just smile." Said Jennie and left him.
Jack confused to her. Jack looked at to Jennie until Jennie disappear  from his sight.

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One hot day, Jennie was walking home. She was rush in because she has to return to the campus because she must teach the first year of student - Jennie was Lecture assistant now - but, suddenly she heard lots of noisy in the garden. She ran to the voice. It was right. She found Jack fought with many people there. Jack was won. But not after she came. Jennie opened her bottle of cockroach and threw it to Jack.

Obviously, Jack screamed aloud and scared by this cockroach. Jennie laughed aloud to see it. Meanwhile one of the people who fought with him succeed to beat him, but after that he hold his attack and said, "Another time, if you fight. Don't bring your girl friend. It is not fair. I will fight you another time."
Jack looked at Jennie with his angry face. Meanwhile Jennie smiled to him in won and nosy smile.
"You are not my girl frieeeennndd!!!!" screamed Jack.
"Then who said that I am your girl friend?" Said Jennie walked away leave him who sat on the grass with his awful face.

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Since that day, Jennie always use the cockroach as the weapon to against Jack. Until one day Jack really give up to Jennie. And there might come peace between two of them. And all the day is very quiet without their noisy. Actually, they miss it. But don't know how to start it.

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One empty and quiet day, Jack come approach to Jennie who silent under the tree. No body knows what she looked but she even do not read any book around her not even working on the netbook that she turned on.
"Hi" said Jack.
"Hi" answered Jennie.
"It's quiet now." said Jack while sat next to her.
"It is. I miss it." said Jennie.
"Miss what?" asked Jack.
"Miss to fight against you." said Jennie while she smiled and hide her red face.
"Me too. I don't no one now." said him.
"I will start to against you now." said Jennie. Jack opened his eyes widely.
"Okay." said him. Then, both of them laugh together.

             ????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Tangkap Saya Pak!.....(Please arrest me)- Indonesian Version

Tersebut seorang gadis bernama Sherly, dia berumur 22 tahun, cantik dan sedang menempuh pendidikan di sebuah universitas. Si gadis mengambil jurusan hukum. Dia ingin menjadi seorang pengacara, kelak kemudian hari. 

Dan Sherly saat ini sedang jatuh cinta dengan seorang polisi muda yang tampan dan gagah yang tinggal dua blok dari rumahnya. Tetapi si pak polisi ini sepertinya tidak pernah memperdulikan Sherly. Sherly sudah melakukan banyak sekali trick untuk memikat hati si pak polisi ini, tetapi pak polisi ini tetap saja dingiiiiinnnn........

Di suatu hari yang indah, Sherly pergi ke pasar. Sherly pergi dengan motornya. Selama dalam perjalanannya menuju ke pasar, Sherly menyanyikan lagu-lagu kesayangannya. Tetapi dalam perjalanannya menuju ke pasar, sesuatu tengah terjadiii....................Sherly hampir saja menabrak sebuah truk di depannya karena Sherly melihat pak polisi itu ada di depan sana. Kemudian, Sherly berhentu sejenak dan kemudian melepas helmnya. Sherly tersenyum dan kemudian melajukan motornya.

Tiba-tiba...prrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitttt.....!!! Pak polisi meniup peluitnya. Sherly berhenti di depan polisi muda itu. 

"Selamat pagi Bu, maaf mengganggu perjalanan anda." sapa polisi muda itu.

"Silakan, Pak." kata Sherly dengan wajah bahagianya.

"Bisa minta SIM dan STNK-nya, Bu."kata polisi muda itu.

"Bisa, Pak. Ini Pak." Sherly menyerahkan SIM dan STNK nya.

"Surat-surat Ibu lengkap. Tapi apakah Ibu mengetahui bahwa kalau naik motor itu harus pakai helm, Bu?" tanya polisi muda itu lagi.

"Saya sangat tahu itu, Pak." kata Sherly dengan semangat.

"Lalu, kenapa Ibu tidak memakai helmnya Bu?" polisi muda itu bingung. 

"Karena saya ingin Bapak menangkap saya?" kata Sherly dengan senyum manisnya. 

"Apakah Ibu melakukan kejahatan sehingga saya harus menangkap Ibu?" Polisi muda itu tambah bingung. 

"Iya sebentar lagi saya akan melakukan kejahatan." Kata Sherly dengan senyum menggodanya. 

"Kenapa Ibu mengatakan itu kepada saya? Dan kejahatan apa yang akan Ibu lakukan?"Polisi muda itu semakin bingung.

"Karena saya akan mencuri." kata Sherly semangat.

"Apa yang akan Ibu curi?" tanya polisi muda itu semakin bingung sekali. 

"Karena saya akan mencuri hati Bapak."

????????????????????????????????????????????????? Polisinya bingung.....

Please arrest me..........(Tangkap saya Pak!)-English Version

A girl, named Sherly. She's about 22 and pretty. She was studying in a Law school. She wanted to be a lawyer of course.

But how ever, still she was just a girl who fell in love. Sherly fell in love to police who lived two blocks from her house, but the police seemed don't care to her. Sherly had did many tricks to imppressed the police officer, but he still coolllddddd..............

One finest day, Sherly went to a market. Sherly went on her motorbike. Sherly sang her favorite songs along the way to the market. But....something bad happened to her.

she was shocked. Sherly almost crashed on a truck as she saw the police officer. Sherly stopped for a momment and then she openned her helmet. She smiled a litle then drove her motorbike again. 

Suddenly......hoonkkk......the police officer blew his whistle. Sherly stopped to him.

"Good morning, Ma'am. I am afraid I will have your time to speak." said the police officer to Sherly. Sherly smiled to the officer and said, "Yes, please sir."

"Would you please show me your driving license?" asked the police again.

"Sure, here you are, sir." Said Sherly still with her smiled.

"Okay, your driving license is fine, but do you know Ma'am that you shall driving with helmet?"

"Absulotely, I know that."

"You know that?" surprised the officer, "then why you against the rule?"

"Because, I want you to arrest me." Said Sherly cheerfull. The officer confused, "Why do you want me to arrest you? Did you do something against the law?"

"Yes, I will." 

"Why, do you said, I will?" the young police was getting more confused.

"Because I want to steal something." said Sherly.

"What? what will you steal? And why you want me to know?" asked the officer again.

"Because I want to steal your heart, sir. Why? Because I am impresed to you!!"

 "?????????????????????????????????" Police officer surprised!

Angel Fair - Indonesian Translation

By: Janti Fitri


Pernah nggak tahu rasanya jadi wanita kedua? Jangan deh, jangan pernah menjadi wanita kedua. Tapi itu terjadi pada Kirana, perempuan usia 29 tahun dan berprofesi sebagai jurnalis.

Perkenalan singkatnya dengan Awang terjadi pada saat Kirana meliput banjir di Semarang. Ah…ceritanya cukup heroik. Saat itu Kirana tengah mengambil gambar, mendadak air mengalir dengan derasnya dan hampir menyapu Kirana, tepat saat itu Awang berada di situ dan menyelamatkannya. Entah bagaimana kisahnya, akhirnya mereka bertukar nomor telpon dan sejak itu mereka telpon-telponan.

Ah…cinta memang kadang unik, jarak membuat Kirana dan Awang menjadi lebih dekat. Dan cinta itu memang luar biasa, mampu merasakan apa yang dirasakan oleh orang yang dicintainya. Seperti petang itu, Kirana sedang sedih banget, soalnya, dia habis dimarahin bosnya. Kirana benar-benar membutuhkan Awang pada saat seperti ini, tetapi ketika Kirana mengirim pesan singkatnya, jawaban di ujung sana garing banget, “Lagi ada rapat.”

“Kok sadis banget ngomongnya, biasanya kan nggak begitu?” batin Kirana. Hati Kirana mulai berdebar, apakah mungkin ada yang lain di sisi Awang, apakah yang menjawab tadi bukan Awang? Tapi itu mungkin saja bisa terjadi, lanjut hati Kirana, Awang tidak pernah mau dihubungi pada malam hari ataupun hari libur. Awang selalu berpesan biarlah Awang yang menelpon dulu, bukan Kirana. Ah…bukankah mendengarkan kata hati itu perlu, cinta itu berasal dari hati baru kemudian pikiran, kalau saat ini kedua unsur itu setuju, berarti tidak ada salahnya kalau membiarkan kecurigaan itu berlanjut. Maka, Kirana melanjutkan mengirim pesan singkatnya, “Ah…paling nggak rapat, paling lagi mandiin anak tuh..” Dan jawaban di ujung sana adalah, “Iya” hanya itu? Sesingkat itu? Itu bukan Awang. Hari yang sangat buruk bagi Kirana, dia mengharapkan seseorang akan mendampinginya dalam masalah ini, tetapi orang yang diharapkan pun tidak memberikan itu, malahan menjadikannya semakin buruk.

Siang ini, Kirana nekat pergi ke Semarang dia harus bertemu dengan Awang, Awang harus menjelaskan ini. Walaupun hati Kirana sudah cukup siap dengan apapun hasil terburuk, tetapi air mata Kirana masih saja tetap mengalir di pipinya setiap mengenang Awang. Tetapi semuanya itu harus diputuskan hari ini juga, semuanya harus selesai.

Kirana sudah duduk di sebuah kedai makan menanti kedatangan Awang hari ini. Kirana sibuk menata hatinya, dia tidak mau jika bertemu Awang nanti dia menangis. Memang, airmata itu sudah terhenti, tetapi lebam matanya tidak mudah hilang secepat itu.

Setelah berjam-jam Kirana menanti Awang, akhirnya Awang datang juga. Wajahnya memang agak berbeda kali ini, lebih pucat dan berkeringat. Langkahnya tergesa menghampiri Kirana yang sudah menantinya. Hati Awang semakin berdebar begitu melihat mata lebam Kirana, “Hai, sudah lama nunggunya?” Kirana hanya menggeleng sambil tersenyum. Awang duduk di depan Kirana, sambil membuka menu makan siang di kedai itu.

Untuk beberapa waktu yang lama mereka saling terdiam, Kirana menunduk sambil menikmati makan siangnya. Katanya setelah lama terdiam, “Katakan padaku, kau sudah menikah ya?”

Awang terkesiap mendengar perkataan Kirana, “Aku…” Awang tidak melanjutkan perkataannya. Desahan panjang dan berat terhempas dari hidung Awang. Awang kemudian menyentuh tangan Kirana dan berkata, “Maafkan aku. Aku tidak bermaksud membohongimu. Tetapi sejak bertemu kamu pertama kali rasanya aku jatuh cinta lagi. Seperti cinta pertama. Aku tidak bisa membohongi perasaanku. Aku mencintaimu, tapi pertemuan kita memang tidak tepat. Aku menyesali pertemuan kita ini, mengapa kita tak berjumpa pada waktu dulu. Sehingga aku bisa hidup bersamamu selamanya.”

“Apakah kau tak mencintai isterimu?” Kirana memotong permohonan maaf dari Awang karena sudah tak sanggup lagi mendengarkan kata-kata Awang.

“Aku mencintainya. Tapi bersamamu ada yang lain. Seperti cinta pertama.” Awang menatap ke dalam mata Kirana.

“Apakah isterimu tidak sadar kalau kau berselingkuh?” Tanya Kirana dengan nada bergetar.

“Dia tahu. Dan sudah seminggu ini kami bertengkar. Tapi semalam kami sudah baikan.” Awang tersenyum mencoba mencairkan suasana. Tetapi, airmata Kirana malah meleleh di pipinya. Kata Kirana, “Sudah. Kita akhiri saja semua ini. Aku tak mau merusak keluarga yang sudah kau bina selama ini. Dia wanita yang hebat. Walaupun dia sudah mengetahui bahwa suaminya berselingkuh dia tidak melabrak aku. Atau menteror aku. Dia membuatku kagum. Dan aku juga hanya menginginkan suami yang hanya milikku sendiri. Bukan milik orang lain. Aku juga tidak mau mengambilmu dari anak dan isterimu. Aku akan sangat jahat sekali jika aku melakukannya. Kita akhiri saja semua ini dan jangan telpon aku.”

“Jangan. Aku tidak mau berpisah denganmu. Aku sayang kamu. Sungguh. Tapi aku juga sayang isteri dan anakku.” Awang memohon.

“Lalu kau pikir aku ini apa?” pertanyaan Kirana membuat Awang terdiam. Bening di mata Kirana membuat hati Awang tergetar. Awang merasa sangat bersalah sekali baik dengan wanita yang duduk di hadapannya maupun wanita yang telah ia nikahi selama ini. Awang berucap lagi setelah menghembuskan nafas, “Kita tetap temenan ya? Karena tidak semudah itu menghapuskan cintaku padamu. Aku berjanji, setelah kau dapatkan kekasihmu sendiri, aku akan pergi.”

Kirana tidak menjawab. Air matanya luruh jatuh. Selama ini dia paling membenci lelaki yang berselingkuh. Malahan dia sendiri menjadi wanita kedua dalam kehidupan orang lain. Dan lelaki itu adalah lelaki yang sangat ia cintai pula. Apa yang harus dilakukan Kirana? Awang tidak mau diputuskan. Sementara di sisi hatinya yang lain, Kirana takut menghancurkan keluarga orang lain.

Dan Kirana pun kembali pulang tanpa tahu harus bagaimana mengakhirinya………………………….

    

One Finest February

Lonely swan

By: Janti Fitri

I sat on the bank of the lake this evening. I felt so lonely and empty. Maybe like the swimming swan on this lake.

The flowers of flame tree felt down as the wind blew it. Some flowers felt down on my lap. I touched the flowers and I found that flame flowers are wonderful. I looked around and found that so many flame flowers on the ground. It was like a thick carpet.

To my surprise, a young boy came then sat on the bench I sat. He was around 16s years or 17s year old. He was a good looking boy. His skin was white and clean. I thought he know how to dress well.

Suddenly, this young teenager told me some stories. I didn’t know when he started the conversation, but he already told me almost all of his secret stories.  

“What would you think about me? Well, I am only 16, and I should marry tomorrow?” said he. I looked at to his red face. Maybe anger was in this face or maybe just sun burn, not sure.

“Why would you marry that soon? I don’t think that your parents arrange your marriage, right?” I said to this young boy.

“No,” said he. “It was because of….well, no…I don’t know who was doing wrong here. It was just happening. When I realized it, I was bared on my embarrassed. I am only 16 years old and I will be called, Dad. I lost everything. My wonderful youth….uuhhhf.!!! It’s not fair!!” he growled.

“Why should you growled?” I asked him.

“I am sorry. I don’t know to whom I should angry with.” This young boy fell on silence for such a long while. I myself stared to the lake. I was very blank. I even didn’t want to think about anything, not even about the problem I face right now.

“What should I do now?” he asked me again.

“Just do what you should do right now. Maybe your youth end up right now. Be a good father for your child. Don’t let your child do the same mistaken. That’s what you might do, I think.” I said to him. I looked into his face. He was silent and he nodded his head.

“But I am so shy.” Said he.

“Why should you shy? Did you shy when you were doing all of this? You must take all of these consequences. Try to accept all of these consequences for all what you have done.” I said to him.

“It was because of what evil worked!” cried him.

“Why did you blame evil? I think you had called him to be around you. So they came between both of you.” I said to him.

“Am I ready to be a father?” He sighed.

“Ask your heart! How? You know exactly what you want. But I think you asked your heart to do not speak things that you won’t hear.”

Both of us fell in silence. He was with his mind about his early marriage, and me about to found who am I? It was been very complicated.

This lake was getting very quiet.  Again, I felt lonely even I was been accompanied. I realized I also confuse to what I should choose. Stay or leave?

I was living in a heap of illusions. All the catwalks luxurious seem eternal to each eyes that looked at my body which demanded more than just seeing. My night life was staggering my heart. Which way that I should choose? And…all of these thought sink me down on my exhausted.

I was surprised by the young boy. He held my hands and kissed my hands, then said, “Thank you very much for this evening. I got to do something. I don’t want to do wrong again. I want to be a good father.” He stood up then ran to where the sun set.

I looked at him until I couldn’t see him again. Well, how easy to talk but it’s hard to do. That’s the thought on my mind. I just open my mouth and a young boy do what I said, meanwhile I myself not doing things I said.

I remembered what Mom and I argued about this afternoon.

“Josephine, listen to me. I am tired to hear your grievance after the shows. Leave the catwalk and put off what you have right now. Go to England, back to school. Your uncle is waiting for you.”

“But, I love my work, Mom….”

“Love? What is the meaning of love Jo? Grievance? If you love your job, you are willing to bear on all the risks from things that you love.” Said Mom.

“Right, Mom. I already bear on it. I already accept it. I always jealous to couples that passing me by. I am alone because of my work. I do it with all of my heart. I am willing to be alone but I don’t want anybody sees me like that. I hate their eyes. I am a model Mom, I sell mode not my body. I am not the things to be sold.” I almost in tear.

“A willing doesn’t recognize BUT, sweetheart. I am happy you are an autonomous young lady. I am happy you are famous. I am happy you tried hard to prove that a model is not a whore. But what you get from all of these? Emptiness! You prove nothing! Every person is different, sweetheart. As long as there is a model that want to sleep with to lots of men, people will still look at you the same with another.”

Sometimes, I didn’t agree Mom, but right now, I felt really lonely. I need something and it is LOVE! Yeah…love! Love from poet. I felt embarrassed to the young boy. He knew love and I don’t. yeah…I need to be loved. What is love look like?

In my rough mind which I couldn’t stop the storm inside, suddenly, a woman sat beside me and cried. She said, “All the men are the same! All of them jerk! My father had five wives and now my husband. To him, I can’t satisfy him anymore! He cheated me. He has a young girl friend. Well…I am not pretty anymore. I….I am old. Honey, one day if you have husband, make sure that he won’t be like my husband. Let him only love you and loyal to you….” This woman hadn’t finished her words when suddenly a man ran to us. Suddenly this man bended on his knee and held her hands, “My Love, I know you angry to me. But I think you shouldn’t do this to me. I didn’t do the things that you said. I don’t know who told you this lie. If you angry to me because of Saskia, I will answer it. Look over there, My Love. Look!”

The woman who still cried, look to the direction which his husband showed to her. I also looked to the place he showed. I saw a senior high school complete with her uniform stood beside a car which polish well near the park. Said her husband, “Look who is with her!”

A woman gets off from the car. Her face was pale and she wore a jacket and scarf on her neck. She seemed she was recovering from her sick. The woman sigh and said, “Sister Eni?”

“Yes. She is your twin sister who was lost. She was back home because of her husband is died. But soon after she arrived, she sick. I met Saskia accidently. I met her in the hospital. I took care of all the things that your sister and your niece needs. We secretly hide if from you, because we want to make surprise party for you, for tomorrow. But you already angry before the party….so…”

The woman smiled to her husband. She was blushing. Then both of them leave the lake hand by hand. But before they went far, she looked at me and winked at me, seems like wanted to said that what she had told me is not right. I smiled. It was very funny to see what a childish they are.

Looking into this couple made my heart was getting sick. In my youth, I don’t even know about love. All men I loved before was so afraid to me. It was because I am popular, rich, pretty, autonomous, and..and..and..many reasons they told me when they left me.

When the swan is no longer alone

The shadows of the past poison my grey nerve. I am sick of me. Very sick. If only I have a partner, I’m sure they won’t look at me like the way the used to. But…I, I ran to catch the wind. I did it because I want to be accepted by young lady who has same age with me. I don’t want someone looked at me higher or lower. I am the same with everyone. I need to be loved.   

I looked at to the sparkling swan on the lake. Maybe, it felt the same. Ahh…no! There was a white shadow down on the water. The water was splashing and made sparkling water in the air. It was shaking her feather seems like flirting the cob swan. It was very pretty and I thought the cob swan impressed to her. How intimated they were. They made me jealous. No, no time to think about jealous! I would glad to think about another thing. DECISION! That what should I think. Stay or leave!

To my surprised, there came an old man and sat beside me. He started to stare my body, from top of my body down to the bottom of my body. His breath seemed like he was running 10 km. He was like a wolf that found the prey and started to jump over it. He was so nasty.

“Hi, pretty,” Said he, “What you been up to here? Why you would be alone in this beautiful dusk? I don’t mind to accompany.”

I tried to calm my self from the anger. But it was out of my mind, he wasn’t care to my wrinkled face. He looked like enjoy my anger. This old man sat closer to me. I stepped a side. Suddenly, his hand moved to my body. I caught his hand and pulled it away. Finally, he took out his cigar and start to smoking, said he in his conceited, “You are Josephine, right? You should not to be arrogant like that. I know about you. I know every inches of your body.”

“Excuse me, would you mind leave me alone, please?” I said to him.

“Why do you want me to go? It is public area. I can be everywhere in public area. Including you, you are public area too.” He smiled in his deep voice.

“It is public area. But it is not hunting area and I am not your prey.” I said in my anger voice.

“What is different between you and another prey?” his nasty hand tried to touch my body, but suddenly I felt another hand hold me,

“I am sorry, honey. I am sure you have been waiting for me for such a long time. I am sorry I am late.” A young man said to me. He had a good looking. He looked at me right through my eyes, so close to my face. I was staggering by his beauty. He smiled to me in such lovely way. He was so bright in the dusk light.

I was very amazed by him. I even didn’t know when the nasty man left us. I only knew that suddenly, this young man released his hand from my body, then he took a seat beside me and said, “I am sorry, I just try to save you from that man.”

“It is okay. I thank you very much because of this.” I said to him.

I didn’t know where did I started the conversation, but suddenly I had told him about what brought me here without I spelled my name as Josephine, the super model!

This was the first time I listened by someone. It was so relieved. It made me want to start everything from here. I wanted to be Josephine, the ordinary girl.

“I will go to England, but actually I love this place.” I said to him.

“Just do the best. What ever your decision is, it is must be the best. Should you think about disappoint or being disappointed? Don’t let the regret come at the end of your life story. Do the things without any depression from any one or anything. Trust your heart. Believe that your decision is the right decision you make. I am sure you know this much.” He said to me.

“May I, remember you? Well…I mean, soon after I am in England I will miss you. And when I back home, I have a reason to come back home.” I said it with my blushing face.

“Why not? A missing is wonderful thing.” He said that and then smiled.

Swan lake with your swans, I am not alone anymore. I had friend to accompany here. But I will be leaving, but I will back home for sure. Because everything is being started in the bank of Swan Lake on a day on the finest February.